i'm a loser??

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not yet.. i'm not loser owkey..

perlukah kt membencimu..
layak ke kt ni..
mungkin kt ni terlalu kerdil utk itu..
tp perasaan 2 sush nk diluputkn..
npe ko ni bengong sgt atiq??
ko jgn pkr sgt leh x..
dlu ko kuat kn..
disebbkn bende cm2 ko nk jatuh terduduk ke??
ko xpent ke??
ko ingt owg nk kecian kat ko ke??
lgi menyampah ade la..
owg x heran la..



ingt la..
family still ade ngn ko smp skrg..
smp ble2 la..
ksh syg dorg pd ko xkn berkurang la..
dorg akn sentiasa berada d sisi k0 wlu pe pun keadaan..
tp klu ko wat jahat, msti la dorg tegur kn..
ko kne tabah.. bru la semgt makin membara..

chill ea... sabo...

jauh hati

npe kt msti berperasaan mcm 2??
xbaek sungguh..
tp kt slalu merasakan nya..
kt tau kt ni memg bodoh kot..
slalu pkr negatif..

myb i'm a loser...
always loss..
ape2 y kt wat msti wat kt agk sakit hati..
kt tau kt ni xpenting pd spe2 pun..
yela ape2 benda pun msti kt akn jd owg y last tau..
kt ni msti membosnkn smp nobody would like 2 share anything wit me..
kt ni xbyk cakap..
nk wat cmne..
dah memg kt cmni..
xkn tbe2 nk jd owg laen lak..
x ke rse janggal...


"die" pun anggap kt xpenting gak..
myb kt ni hanya mainan bg "die"..
dlu "die" syg kat kt..
skrg dah mcm x je..
"die" xphm persn kt pun..
klu 'die" nk kt berjaya, cara "die" xkena langsung..
not like dat la..
mcm la kt ni tunggul..
leh disepak sesuka hati..

npe die msti bgtau jgn tny die mcm2, nt die pening kepala..
kt hnya nk tau status ktrg je..
salah ke?? npe gantung kt x bertali..
npe x pernh nk bg penjelasan pape bg kt phm..
bg kt x m'harap sgt.. u make me hurt...
it's not easy to me accept if we are break up..
but i can try 2 accept it..
but u never say anything..
samaada nk break or teruskn..

when i thinking about u, i feel so sad..
i will crying.. alone.. u know alone..
kt xlayak kot nk kongsi ngn spe2 pun..
xde spe nk dgr.. asyik cite y sme je..
sume owg dah muak..
lgpun kt xnk sushkn spe2 pun..
nt dorg ckp, kt ni ngengada la...
ikut sgt persn 2... dorg xphm..
dorg xnk phm pun.. kt ni xpenting..

kdg2 kt rse mcm nk quit je..
nk lari jauh2.. msti xde spe y peduli pun..
nth2 kt mati pun dorg x sedh..
yeke?? x kot...
tp kt xnk malukn kuarga kt...
dorg byk berkorban tuk kt..
terutamanya mak n abh...
berdosa sungguh kt klu wat dorg sedih...
kt syg sgt2 kat dorg wlupn kt xtunjuk sgt...
kt rindu sgt2 kat dorg..
xde spe y syg kt lebih drpd dorg..
mak, abh, adik byk wat salah kn...
selalu kne tipu je ngn lelaki2..
npe adik x sekuat k'dah..
npe adik terlalu lemah..
fed up nye..
adik mntk maaf sgt2 sebb xleh jd dak y baek..
cept sgt menyerah kn..
ptutnye kt kne usaha kn..
tp mcm xmampu je..
tangisan slalu disampingmu..
terlalu mudah untukmu menyalirkn permata dri matamu itu..
2 easy.. i can't avoid it...
i dont know why... really, really, really, dont know..
just shut up...